Those moments

The past few weeks have been fun, busy, tiring and adventurous, there is so much I could write about including our trip to Hawaii, Mother's Day, San Diego Zoo, a night at the Ritz, a visit from my brother and his wife, and a funeral for Adam's Grandma.  But those will all have to wait, because today I had a moment with  my boy that I just wanted to remember as clearly as possible.

After weeks of sleep regression and a boy that is growing more and more attached to me, I am pretty tired at the end of a day.  Thankfully Troy is pretty much just always happy during his waking hours.  Truly, he fusses so rarely that when he does I don't really know what to do.  I guess you can't have it all, the perfect awake baby, does not mean he's the perfect asleep baby.  But, back to my point, this evening as I was cleaning up our messes and thinking it was about time for me to start making dinner, I sat in my rocking chair holding my sweet boy who just kept cuddling with me and looking at me and smiling, and had one of those moments you can only know as a mother.  I looked at this happy smiling boy, who makes anyone he makes eye contact with feel like the most important person in the world as he flashes his big mouth smile, and I wondered how Adam and I ended up with a kid that has this little happy, friendly, personality.  And then I realized, Troy was born to Adam and me, but he came from a loving Heavenly Father, who is trusting us to raise this kid to build his own testimony and relationship with Him. Heavenly Father knew what both Adam and I could handle, and knew that a happy kid that gets everyone smiling would be exactly what we needed in our lives. 

Given my past experience with depression and the introverts that both Adam and I are, I have often thought that we will have a kid that is doomed to sit alone in a corner all his life and not have any friends...since basically Adam and I are still that way today...but it was clear to me today, that Troy has a chance at creating his own world and with this endearing personality he's developing, he's not doomed at all.  I know all mom's think their kids are special, and they should, but Troy has just got something extra special that he is giving to Adam and me, and the world, it's in his eyes, there is something so endearing and genuine he really grabs everyone's attention and just makes people smile.  Our babysitter has even told me there's something about him that is truly unique in this way.  A random boy in her neighborhood who had never met Troy before was over one day and was playing with Troy and said, "you can see the whole universe in his eyes."  I tell you, it's true, he's got something special to share with this world, and I only hope and pray that we can raise him to see this great potential he has.  We'll be doing a service project in a couple weeks at a convalescent home, I can't wait to take Troy there to share the love he has for people and how he can be a light to them.